Hot damn, haven't updated this in fuckin' eons.

see, not much has changed;;

Sleepin' patterns; Same.

Repetitive lifestyle; Same.

The only thing worth sharing is well;;

Now, I have you.

Looks like this is back up and runnin' again!

I Love You so fucking much..

What is true love?

    When knowing the person you love is waking up next to the wrong person, someone who isn't you, someone who you know couldn't love them as much... and as deeply and as truly as you have. And hoping to god that they realize that they can't live without you, that the way they feel they can't stand being without you... and hoping against all hope that all the time you two shared together, and the feelings you shared together, the lust, the love, the memories you made together, the whispers, that unspoken bond, that care and that stare..(That stare..The stare that you know drives you over the edge... That you knew.. You just... knew had to be made just for you..)...wasn't completely lost, or fake, or unreal.. And hoping that this isn't the complete end, but at the same time wishing with every fiber of your being that they truly find happieness in their life with that person that you feel could never again be you...
Wishing you could feel that happiness for just one more moment, wanting so badly to have it back again.

Sorry, Xanga, myspace has taken up so much more of my time. It turns me on way more.


So, which one of you boys will walk me to my car ^.-

wow, so, I’m sitting here, not sleeping some more.

I do this a lot; this not sleepin’ thing.

Don’t bother askin’ why, I have no idea.

Edit:

my week is gay. But sarah’s back, and I’m excited.

She’s pretty. I love her.

um, I’m going to the beach this coming Tuesday.

My birthday is in 17 days.

I wanna play with your shaggy hair, because it makes me make dirty sounds.

:::Tell me something I don’t know about you.

Make it a lie, because You haven’t spoken to me anyway

Be the promising actor you are,

I want to be your leading lady.::::

I’ve been sitting here.

And I can’t stop fucking thinking about you.

And it’s fucking ridiculous,

And un-fucking-necessary,

I’m naïve and ignorant, and I hate this.

How you can sit here, and tell her, You love her.

You’re telling her every word you’ve said to me.

And Jealousy Burns.

I want nothing more then to live through this.

Once and for all I guess I know,

You don’t love me.

You liar.

You lead me on.

KThanksBye

Yeah, You’re always there for me.

Yeah, so, That’s cool.

I decided that Susie, is one of my best influences.

I plan on spending a nice evening with him.

My two weeks of probation should be enough time to think about things.

everyone always asks what happened to us...the two best friends who

were crazy

over each other...I always reply with you were the crazy one...cause you

walked away

from it all…

I hope I have enough money for a certain something that helped me sleep.

You knew I’d come to you for this. It’s amazing how I didn’t doubt you.

And when I called you last night I realized, as crazy as it sounded.

You believed me.